The most diminute sound escapes into the night.
I can't see anything under my covers, but the air that fills the room feels empty. My hands shiver as each one of my thoughts becomes deeper and more of a reality. My eyes adjust to the pitch black room, I can see lights reflecting on my mirror. I see him by my side, his face calm, his eyes closed. A sudden breeze of peace surrounds me. His arm over me doesn't let me move very well, but just the thought of him protecting me takes over any desire of leaving his side. Because only he knows what I fear, and only he knows what I dream. If only I had known id find him all those teenage years, I wouldn't have cried so much. All the deceptions that dried me up inside have made it harder for me to trust and to let go of things. But wen I look into the night, its endlessness gives me the power to love once more, knowing that God is there guiding me knowing what will happen. It gives me a bit more of hope every day I live. Not trying to control my everymove alone, but with his help increasing my chances to have a decent life. A decent life next to someone that deserves to be loved, someone im willing to give everything I've got.
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